Thursday, August 7, 2014

Wednesday Words:

I hope you will all forgive me seeing as it is now my Friday morning and your Thursday night, and I am now just getting to post my Wednesday writing prompt. I am a few days away from ending this deployment and things have been busy trying to get everything set in order to leave the country.

I'm pretty excited about this one because I found a pin that took me over to Apple Blue who had a huge list of post ideas and I was immediately drawn to one prompt because I have actually been thinking about these for a while now. Since I'm leaving Afghanistan and getting ready to transition out of the Marine Corps I figure it's time to not just dream about the life I will be living here soon, but legitimately set goals to build the life of my dreams. Plus, if I set my goals on here there will probably be some accountability. So without further explanation, I present 5 Goals (to actively work toward this year).

1- Compete in a fitness competition: bikini category
 When the Monster was 6 months old I got a gym membership and a deal to work with a personal trainer. My trainer was so knowledgeable and encouraging she really opened my eyes to the fitness world and made me want to compete. Unfortunately when the Monster was just over a year old I ended up really sick and really out of shape and no longer had a trainer. I kept thinking about doing a competition, but I had no idea where to start and no idea where I would get the confidence to get on stage in just a bikini >.<

After I saw three friends on Facebook get up on stage I said to myself "I wish I could do that." Wellp, the wishin' stops and the workin' starts here! It has been 50/50 with the eating, having the chow hall cook everything is great but the selection of healthy eating is not. Working out is going well, but I get bored easily so if you have any ideas or have competed in a fitness competition leave a comment or email me I'm still a little clueless, but learning more every day... wish me luck!

2. Learn Spanish - like for real this time.
I am 100% Mexican third/second generation and I don't speak Spanish. I can pick out words here and there and I took a Spanish class in high school but nothing ever stuck. So when I get back I'm going to actually take a class and use it every day. I want the Monster to know Spanish, as well as really understand what culture he comes from, so if I learn Spanish I know he will have fun speaking another language and learning about our history.

3. Become Self-employed.
Transitioning out of a job I've had for 7 years is scary, but I'm also really excited about it because I would like to continue with Photography and a little writing (hence the blog) so why not be my own boss? Has anyone else decided self-employment was the way to go? If you have, especially in the photography realm I'd greatly appreciate any input! Even if you haven't but are thinking about it let me know, we can help each other during down times and share resources we've found with each other, besides who doesn't want a buddy or two to help along the way?

4. Improve the blog.
I know this sort of coincides with the previous goal, however I want to set this apart because I would like to own my own site. Blogger, you've been great but I really want to take this blog further. The first thing would be to stick to a schedule... oops. Once my photography work starts to resemble that of a portfolio, I would like to add a page dedicated to it. I'd like to improve my writing skills and increase the reach of the audience. I'm constantly on other blogs trying to see what ideas they have, and of course the SITS Girls site is a great place to look for blogging resources. 

5. Be a better Mom.
I saved this one for last because it is the most important goal I feel I have, the one that is closest to my heart and also the one that will be ongoing. I know through preschool I can probably homeschool the Monster so I want to make sure I'm there for every minute of it. Being away from him for this long has been the toughest thing I've had to do so far. He's grown so much since I've been gone and I can't wait to get back to him.  I have actually submitted paperwork to leave the Marine Corps early. It was a hard decision to think about, but I know that the Corps did absolutely amazing without me for 230 years before I came in and it will do just fine for the many years of its existence after I'm gone, but my son will only be little for a while, he'll only grow up once. After dealing with a couple Marines who need their hand held to do things I know for a fact I would rather be raising my own son than someone else's kid (who is actually a grown man). I do love the Marine Corps and mostly all the Marines I've crossed and walked paths with, but I Love my son more, and he deserves to have me there for the rest of his life. Plus, I'm always on Pinterest and I see all these awesome things to do that I know the Monster would lose his mind over having so much fun doing and learning different things.

I know I have other things I want to improve and goals I want to set, but those are the top five things I want to work on this year. If you have any advice, or want to join me in smashing one of these goals, let's connect and be each other's accountability partners.  Change is always an opportunity for improvement it doesn't always have to be scary.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Role Model Monday: Maisha of Ahsiam Works

Before the weekend kicked off, I re-posted some old writings having to do with being a role model for others. I would like to present to you 

In this series I want to give you examples of people I look up to for many different reasons, but  if you have any suggestions, please leave your role model's name in the comments and tell me why you look up to them.

I would like to start this series off with my sister, Maisha.

We are 13 years apart and only since I joined the Marine Corps have we actually begun a relationship or really being sisters. Though we have the same family, we grew up very, very differently. The way she carries herself with confidence and has a presence that doesn't rudely demand, but more commands respect is one of the reasons I look up to her. She has started her own business, creative as all hell and definitely one of the smartest people I know.

She has kindly agreed to answering a few questions. If there is something more you'd like to know leave it in the comments or check out her latest venture on Facebook.

What is your Home town?
Monrovia CA

Something you find unique about yourself:
I'm left handed BUT, I hold my pen & paper like right handed people. Meaning: My paper, pen and hand aren't tweaked at weird angles when I write. Lol I think I'm the only left handed person I've ever seen write the way I do. 

What do you do?
I'm a small business owner of Ahsiam Works LLC. 
I'm a freelance multimedia artist

  • Graphic design
  • T-shirt design
  • Tattoo design 
  • Acrylic painting
  • 3-D multimedia pieces
  • anything art I will create it

Who or what inspires you?
Everyday life
personal experiences
other artist's work
My imagination
My fiancé motivated me out of a very long 10 year funk.

What gives you the drive to do what you do?
Plain & simply put: Not wanting to be BROKE! Hahaha #TRUTH 

Do you have a set of core values? What are they? 
honesty, loyalty, integrity, dedication

Do you have a life motto or mantra you live by?
4 main mantras: 
1. Speak the truth even if your voice shakes 
2. Tough times don't last but tough people do, screw your past, don't let it screw you.
3. I'm at this stage in my life where if it doesn't 
            a. Make me happy
            b. Make me better
            c. Make me money...      I don't have time for it! 

4. I refuse to be anything but successful! 

How have/do you overcome obstacles that pop-up?
First I go absolutely insane inside my head! Then I take a few breaths try to relax. Then I make a plan of action or two or three. Then I execute the plans until one of them works out. 

What has been a life-changing moment for you?
A life changing moment would've been moving two thousand miles away from home at 24.

Who is one (or more) of your role models and why?
Honestly anyone I've known or know who is a "go getter" are my role models. I always admired people who were successful in life through their own hard work! 

If you could spread a message to the world, what would it be?
"Get over yourself, be cool, be kind, don't be an asshole!" .... But then again what's the point!? We are doomed... This ship is almost SUNK! 

From left to write: Maisha, SheBear
(aka our mom)
and Beans before cornfed - circa 2009


Every person in this series has shown me in one form or another that we each need to take it upon ourselves to be the person we want to be. No one else will become you for you.

Do you have a role model you'd like to share? Leave the person and the reason in the comments.

Friday, August 1, 2014

Whether you think you can or you can't

This is an old post, but this is something I have truly tried working on ever since I wrote it.


I came to the realization that I’m lazy.

I was watching some random YouTube video of this acoustic group, wishing I could play guitar, and then it dawned on me; I can. I have just chose not to.

I have had numerous people encourage me and push me to do great things and I feel I haven’t lived up to my potential.  I’ve done a lot of shoulda coulda woulda and it ends now.
I started to think about all my hopes for The Monster and the kind of man I want him to be and how I hope he chases his dreams with the tenacity, fervor and fearlessness of a honey badger (yeah I said it- look those guys up, fearless!) And if I want my son to be that kind of man then it is up to me to be that kind of role model for him. I will not just tell my son he can do anything and everything he wants and set his mind to, I will show my son he was born for greatness.  I will show my son the satisfaction of hard work and accomplishment.  I will show my son how amazing he is.  Because it’s not just up to Dad’s to make their little boys into men.


The reason I chose to put this post backup is because it is something I felt I have worked on and think I've done fairly well. I've begun setting new goals for myself and working toward them with everything I've got. It also helps that the Sgt. is right here to back me up and keep me accountable to my new goals, hopes and dreams.

I also chose this because come Monday I'm going to start a new weekly post that I hope catches on. As most people would say Mondays suck, but I've realized while being deployed and working seven days a week - it is just another day and any day can be great if you let it. I want to bring positivity and encouragement to Mondays so if you're here I hope you'll come back after the weekend to see what I've got going for us.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Wednesday Words: Summer Wardrobe

I'm getting back in the saddle with a little thing I will be doing every Hump Day.

Wednesday Words! (I'm sure this is already a thing, but it's new here!!)
Basically I will go prompt hunting in the areas of different blogs and link them back here.  I'm really excited to be writing again, even if I am a little rusty. This first prompt is brought to you from Hello Neverland when she asked What are your Summer Wardrobe Staples?


Before we deployed I donated mostly everything in my closet and never looked back! It was a great feeling, to not have so much stuff. I will admit I'm not much of a fashionista or even a girly girl, but after 6 months of cammies and boots I'm ready for something different. I can't wait to get back to the states and hop into a pair of jeans or shorts- maybe even a sun dress?! Ahh, the possibilities seem endless! What makes me crave the freedom of civilian clothing even more? Seeing all the magazines and their websites talking about Choosing the perfect Summer Party Dress, 20 Beat the Heat party pieces under $20 and Summer MUST-HAVES for your closet -- I turned and looked at my wardrobe and of course all my summer staples are vastly different being in Afghanistan - it made me homesick for cute flip flops and tank tops.

I hate feeling down in the dumps so I decided these are some pretty unique summer must-haves(BONUS: they're unisex so I'm totally hooked up with that whole boyfriend-fit trend- that's still going on right?). I present to you:

Summer Wardrobe Staples (in a combat zone)

Daytime look:
Boot socks- drop a little powder in these babies to keep wetness away...for a little while anyway

FROG top and bottom- FROG actually stands for Flame Resistant Organizational Gear. These are also thinner than regular cammies keeping you cooler- if only they'd make a FROG sports bra =/

RAT Boots and boot bands- Rugged All-Terrain boots are a little heavy, but they are definitely more comfortable than some of the boots I've been issued. Boot bands keep the bottom of your trousers closed over the top of your boots making sure no bugs get in- unfortunately these are also annoying.

Watch- when time is of the essence, you're gonna have to keep track of it. I wouldn't recommend spending too much money on this as a deployment will really put it through the wringer

Flak: IFAK, mag pouches, mags, ammo, TQ, drop pouch, carabiner(s)-

Kevlar- Yes, Kevlar is a type of material- this handy helmet is made out of it hence the clever name

M4 (rifle)- This and Water are tied for 1st place of essential accessories. Clean it, respect it and never ever lose it.

Sunglasses- ballistic eyewear is a must, you can either have the actual tinted lens or switch out for a clear lens. Being a photographer my work depends on my eyes being taken care of, so I usually chose the clear lens if I'm out and need protective eyewear, but I usually never walk outside without my sunglasses.

Cover: 8 point or Boonie- A cover is the Marine term for Hat. 8 points are usually what you think of when thinking of a Marine, the boonie cover is more of a wilderness look and actually offers better protection from the sun.

Water- Water is the most important accessory to have this summer, and it's great for your skin!

Nighttime/Leisure Look:

Green Skivvy Shirt- a nice green cotton tee keeps you somewhat cool on hot Afghan nights

Silkies- or any type of super lightweight shorts to stay cool

Shower Shoes- Also known as flip flops. I started this deployment with a two-dollar pair from Old Navy, but they broke just about a month ago so now I have plain black ones that are bound to break any day now. These are essential in showering, a pair of these keep your feet off of the shower floor as well as the entire shower area. This is also the only time crocs are acceptable- and kind of even the pair of shower shoes that are sought after.

If you feel you're not really getting a sense of my totally cool outfit provided by Uncle Sam, I will be posting photos later, it's just hard to get photos up with the internet connection out here


Remember to stop by Hello Neverland's blog, she has great tips and prompts - I feel like I've stumbled upon buried treasure!

Monday, May 12, 2014

Her Majesty

He dared not refuse the Queen, for her scorn seem to hold more fury and destruction than any battle he had been in, but more so the sight of her melted him from the inside out, her warm embrace welcomed him home and her soft voice held him captive. So his only answer was "As you wish," when she said "Daddy, let's have a tea party!"

I've been gone from this writing for so long I needed to get back into it. I wrote this super short story after looking for writing prompts and stumbling upon The Sarcastic Muse and finding some really great writing tips and then a TON of writing prompts on their tumblr. This immediately made me think of how The Sgt. would act if we have a little girl one day, I love watching the Princess Bride, so of course I had to put the obvious homage to it in there.

Writing this little piece had me really thinking about growing our family and who I hope my kids will be someday. At first I was obviously thinking about if I have a daughter how much I want her to just be happy and comfortable with herself, since I never was and how much I don't want her to take 20 plus years to find out who she is and fully embrace it. Then I thought "Well, I want that for ALL my kids, no matter their gender," which makes sense and I'm sure that's really all any parent wants for their kid(s). Naturally, the best way to shape them is to be the person you want them to be, so I've made a promise to myself, from now on I will:
  • pray more and study His word a lot more
  • take time to read, write, take pictures or anything that brings me joy and relaxation.
  • STOP being negative with myself and comparing myself to others
  • give more praise than ridicule
  • accept compliments as they are
  • drink more tea
  • enjoy seeing myself in the mirror
  • never feel guilty about eating something and stop over indulging on junk
  • continue to be active
  • listen to my body when it needs rest
  • accept when I need help instead of pushing through in fear of looking weak

There's probably more I could do to improve on myself, but this is a good place to start.  I just hope that I will set a good example for my little Monster and any more that come along.

The sarcastic muse prompts can be found here and I definitely plan on using more to help me get back in the game :)

Friday, December 28, 2012

Do your kids creep you out?

    The Monster has recently let his personality shine through and it's awesome, but sometimes he does little things that creep me out such as::

I wake up and the kid is just staring at me.  Not one blink or even shutter of the eyelid.  I tried not to notice how disturbing it was at first by rolling over and trying to go back to sleep but then the Monster climbs over my shoulder and sticks his nose in my ear.  Let me tell you if you think heavy breathing behind you is weird try having it literally right in your ear hole.  Sometimes I get lucky enough to get the cool sensation of drool running down the back of my ear and neck

As a Mom I always find myself wanting to clean his face- in particular- his nose! I really can't stand it when his tiny little nostrils are rimmed with crust or ooze.  Or worse, that one little booger that didn't quite get cleaned off and every time he breathes just flails in and out of his nose like a Pentecostal on Sunday morning. Sometimes, I see it from across the room and if he see's me looking at him it's like he knows what I'm thinking and will stop whatever he's doing to shake his chubby little slobber and banana covered feeler at me in a "no-no!" motion.  So to keep him on his toes I throw him for a loop and ask him if he wants a cookie which he always come running for, but he may just not want me to know I'm on to him.

More recently, though, he has taken his creeper status to a whole new level. 

Expert: Creepster McCreeperson.

After a long day away from Dad, when we hear the keys outside the front door I always ask the Monster "Is that Daddy?" to which he replies with a GASP! *shocked face* runs over to be in view of the front entry way (if he's not already there) squats just a little bit and waits. Which is cute when the door opens because he starts running in place waving his arms frantically with an occasional clap and grunting "OO-OO-OO! DA! OO! ANUHNUHNA!" (we still haven't figured out why he shouts anuhnuh [banana] when he gets excited.) So why is this eery on a whole new level? Well because he has started to do this when no one is at the front door he'll even run over to the computer desk or the couch.  Then, just when you think thats disturbing enough he does a slow turn all wide-eyed to look back at me straight in the pupils as if to say "I can hear them mommy dearest can you?!" Makes me coil back shaking my head and outwardly reply with "No, I don't hear them you adorable little lunatic!"

I recently posted about this on Facebook and had 14 people like the status and even had one friend comment "Thank god I'm not the only mom who thinks my kid talks to ghosts!!"  I mean, I know I was a weird little kid but straight creeper like this? Must come from my husband or something.  What weird or creepy thing do your kids do? Or did your parents ever tell you how weird you were when you were little?

Probably about to share food with that dead girl who was poisoned in the 6th Sense 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

where am I?!

UGH! Seriously I feel like I don't know what's going on anymore
I have been sick- constantly since about the end of September and I am just now feeling a little bit better.
So to update you all here's what has gone on since I was last able to write::

   Them monster turned ONE! seriously where did the time go? It's like he was just in his cool little tanning bed just yesterday and now he's grown so big and KEEPS GROWING! Someone stop the madness!
This little boy has done one incredible job of showing me what I was born to do. I kept trying to do a video for him on his birthday and yet all I could do was start crying, maybe I'll never get it done but I sure will try!
   We came back in October and I went to San Francisco for a day to work the Marine Fleet Week's high school band challenge. It's a pretty cool event where Bay Area high schools get together and show off their best performances including their color guard.  It was pretty fun and I got some pretty good video for the recruiting station up there. I was really impressed with all the performances and the city- seriously you guys got it good up north! 

   The rest of the month passed in a pretty big blur until I realized holy moley and a half it's halloween next week! The Mr had to work that night so it was just me and the monster- we were a circus act he was a dancing bear and I was the animal tamer- i didn't really get any pictures of me but I made darn sure I had the monster bear.  We went to go visit Dad at work that night, the monster told him "I'll do the paperwork Dad, you can go out on patrol!"    

November brought the 237th Birthday of my beloved Corps.  The Sgt and I decided instead of going to his units Birthday Ball and mine too, we opted for the one with cheaper tickets- and even though I was bummed I didn't get to wear a dress to his we both had a great time.  And just ten day later we celebrated our two-year anniversary. Sgt just couldn't wait to give me my present so we ended up exchanging gifts two days early- usually I'm a stickler for celebrating special dates on the actual date but after seeing my gift I definitely didn't mind!  We spent a nice cozy and quiet thanksgiving together.  I shared my slice of pumpkin pie with the monster- his very first slice and taste of cool whip! The month ended with us heading out to Julian for their annual christmas tree lighting- which unfortunately wasn't too spectacular and the best pictures of the night were of the monster feeding the Sgt.
During this whole time I was in and out of medical and going to appointment after appointment and having blood drawn, and then getting more blood and more blood drawn they finally decided the reason for my illness was probably my gallbladder seeing as I had cholestatis of pregnancy while the monster was still in my belly.  Well they took a look at me and saw there was no blockage but there was a crap ton of stupid huge stones so they said hey you don't need that anyway and I was like "well I do need a faster run time why don't you take the appendix out too!" (just kidding no one will remove your insides just so you can run faster) I had surgery last week and they finally took it out and now I have four little incisions on my tummy held together and healing under some kind of gorilla glue.  Thankfully my father-in-law came into town to help us with the monster while I heal and he helped us decorate the tree!

Honestly the end of the year has gone by so fast and I have a busy beginning to the new year! So wish me luck and I promise not to leave you guys hanging again!

we look good for 237 years old eh?
When we got married neither one of us had a lot of money and he bought me a smaller ring with just one stone, he hated it and I loved it- but I'm a very big fan of this one too ;) 

And his anniversary gift a new lid for riding- he's wearing it because it also has a bluetooth headset so he can answer the phone when he rides just by simply saying "Hello?" cool huh?!
mmm PIE!! a bit blurry but forgive me it was taken with my phone

kettle corn Dad?
Don't make any sudden movements I'm pretty sure I just saw Santa

three in a line and one right under the belly button

Ok Papa a lil more to the left-that's it just a liiiiiittle more